Beta Alpha

i have struggled

fulfilling the role

assigned to me

man

as perceived by

men

and women

to adhere to the strict doctrine of

masculinity

supported by

overbearing

phallic totems

impersonal

patriarchal systems

dictate

who and how

we are

i have questioned

been questioned

by myself

by lovers

by strangers

frustrated

not living

up to expectations

i am emotional and

despise it

soft

yet yearn

to be hard

passive

even when aggressive

tastes and tendencies

cross

dress down the facade

of boorish arrogance

propped up

to play the character

feminine traits draw

attention and

jeering

corrective action

so i cover her up

in baggy clothes and

stoic emotionlessness

speak in logic

deny the fantastic

avoid intimacy

and walk in the most straightforward direction

even though

i want anything but

Mitchell Chmielewski

I currently reside in Indiana where I am taking classes through Penn State University to complete my Bachelors in Finance and work for a non-profit clinic. I was always passionate about reading and writing and I intend to use this blog to hone my craft and to entertain others. Please feel free to reach out and provide feedback or to discuss my work.

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